We are back to day one, after making it to 5 weeks and 2 days of no seizures. Vivian had some on Thursday morning. It was a very sad morning for Ben and me. Heartbreaking.
We started weaning her off the prednisolone over the past few weeks. This week, she is down to 2ml a day.
Our neurologist is on holiday until Monday. The other neurologist, who treated Vivian when she was very young, said to watch her over the next few days before upping the steroids back up to 4ml. We haven’t seen any more seizures since Thursday morning, but now we are back to watching her like hawks, evaluating every movement and cry. We will be calling our neurologist on Monday to see what he says as well. I don’t know what this means for her, or what it means for her treatment.
A lot has happened over the past two weeks, other than seizures.
I’ve gone back to work almost full time. I almost had a panic attack two days in, when our property manager called me and told me we had 6 weeks to find a new place to live. The owner of our house needs to move back in, because he can’t find a place to stay while EQC comes to fix his house…
The only other time I’ve sobbed like that is when we got Vivian’s MRI results. I really at that point didn’t feel like I could do anything. It was just another thing that was happening to us. And it sucks, it really does. It seems like one thing after another keeps happening and we can’t catch a break!
It is really hard to find a rental property in Christchurch at the moment for a similar price, with similar features (allows our 4 cats, stand alone, 2+ bedroom, space for a washer and dryer, not on a main road, dishwasher). We applied for one place but it was out of our budget and they weren’t willing to budge on the rent amount. It is not a renters’ market here due to lack of supply and huge demand, after the earthquakes. Part of me thinks it was stupid to ever come back to Christchurch now. Maybe we should have stayed on the Kapiti Coast.
If we don’t find something by the end of next week, I think we may look at options with shorter leases (there are a lot of rentals with short leases…so I’m baffled as to why our landlord couldn’t manage to find one for himself).
We got to take Vivian to an osteopath last week. It was really very interesting to watch. The osteo was very gentle and it was hard to tell she was doing anything to Vivian at all. When we left, she said Vivian may have a big sleep, a big feed, or a big bowel movement…she did all three the first night after the appointment, which was amazing (in the real sense of the word- she filled THREE diapers, and slept for first a 3-hour stretch and then a 6 hour stretch that night, and had a great feed after a week of crappy feeding). We have two more appointments set up. They are pretty costly, but seem to be worth it.
The osteo advised us to stop Vivian’s gaviscon…because she thought Vivian being on both gaviscon and omeprazole was overkill, and the gaviscon makes many babies constipated. This isn’t the first time someone other than Vivian’s hospital pediatrician has told us they would treat her reflux differently. Our GP told us he would prefer we slowly wean her off of her omeprazole…but he had no issues with gaviscon. It’s so hard to know who to listen to! We did try her with no gaviscon for a day or two, but she was really miserable, so we are now back to at least two-four doses a day.
After the amazing night we had following that appointment, Vivian has gone back to being extremely unsettled and not eating or sleeping well again…one step forward, three steps back. Today she didn’t even make it to 600ml. I am worried again about her losing weight now. When she was on the highest does of steroids she was taking closer to 1200ml a day.
We aren’t getting much sleep at the moment because she’s not getting much sleep at the moment. Ben is getting even less sleep than I am and I feel awful about it. It’s easy for people to say sleep when the baby sleeps, but when the baby doesn’t sleep, what the hell are you supposed to do then? I wish she would nap more for him while I am at work, so that he can get more sleep.
On top of that, she still has the oral thrush, which is really coating her tongue and probably her throat- Ben took her in to the hospital for her weekly neuro clinic appointment, and asked the doctor to change the anti-fungal medication she has been on for almost a month. She didn’t want to change it and told Ben to wait a few more days. I don’t think she really understood how badly the thrush could be impacting Vivian’s eating at the moment…and I was pretty upset about her medication not being changed. Apparently oral steroids (and steroid inhalers) can really allow thrush to gain a strong foothold in the mouth, so in most instances where steroids are being used, the drug that is commonly prescribed is flucanazole. I don’t understand why they didn’t prescribe that after Vivian showed no improvement three weeks into taking the first medication, Nilstatin. I called them this afternoon and finally got a prescription for flucanazole, so hopefully that works.
I’ll leave you with a video recorded last week of Vivian babbling to herself babbling…babyception of sorts :) She has gone quiet on us this week, and we’ve not had much babbling out of her. Hopefully she’ll start talking our heads off again when she’s feeling a bit better.