Progress isn’t always easy, as I’m sure you know. Sometimes the most satisfying type of progress is the kind you have to work at. The kind that puts you outside of your comfort zone.
You might find you have to grow a bit in order to stop feeling overwhelmed. Push past the discomfort and fear of failure and make things happen.
A new budget to make my pay go further while Ben looked for a job. Having to make sure I actually have a packed lunch and snack, instead of wandering into the kitchen while working from home.
A new morning routine to make sure I’m up and on the early train in to work in a new office environment. New commute costs. New car costs (we’ve never had a car while I’ve been in New Zealand).
On top of all that I’m certain that I suffer from SAD — seasonal affective disorder, so I felt really crappy for a lot of this time, and was very tense, which didn’t help my marriage any. Ben and I fought a lot during the first few weeks we were here. I think most of it was the stress from everything being so different, and all the adjustments we were having to make. All of these new things to adjust to and new challenges to push past at once where a lot for us to take in.
I realize that with those new challenges came some amazing rewards to enjoy.
A new house to make into a home. A new garden with new secrets and new plants to discover. New sounds to enjoy as I work in the garden.
I’d never had the privilege of hearing a tui in person before moving up here. If you’ve never heard one before, you should check out this video of a tui singing:
On a quiet night with a gentle breeze, I can hear the waves crashing nearby. It’s a wonderfully calming sound, and I hadn’t realized I actually missed living near the ocean. It felt a bit like coming home when we moved here.
Ben really loves the area we moved to, and it makes me really happy that he does. If he hated it I would feel horrible, because we moved here for my job. He has luckily found some temporary work on a construction site not too far away, where a retirement village is being built. I’m hopeful that he’ll find something he really enjoys soon, as I know it’s not what he really would like to do for work.
Spring has definitely given me a different outlook on everything. More sunlight hours means more time for me to get things done. The sun also helps me not feel so overwhelmed by things that would seem insurmountable during the dark & dreary months of winter. I feel much happier about all the changes we’ve made now that things have settled down and we’re able to actually take time and enjoy the little things.
Do you ever notice you feel down or in a bit of a rut during winter months only to have the sun help you break through it all come spring?